This is my Confession. (In my URSHER voice)

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I think I have self-sabotaged some areas of my life! Have you ever done this? Are you familiar?

I had a conversation with a friend and former colleague a few months ago and I told her how I think I wasn’t promoted in the organization that we worked at because I was the one who spoke up and shook the table often. This is a story I have been telling myself for a long time. After I told her this, she asked me a question that shook me, she said “but did you apply for different jobs?”

My answer honestly, was NO. I was telling myself a story about something I didn’t get and my story could still be true, but I didn’t even GO AFTER jobs that I possibly wanted.

As I thought about this, it’s something that has happened time and time again. I have wanted something, wished for something, but didn’t go AFTER it. Or I heard a no, one time and stopped, paused, and never looked back.

When I dig deeper it has come down to worth. I have thought I wasn’t worthy of having a Director level job because I wasn’t smart enough.

I thought that I wasn’t worthy of going on a family vacation because we didn’t have enough money.

I still sometimes think I am not worthy enough to have a business because I didn’t see it modeled by a family member.

And so on, and so on….

This month I am trying to disrupt these limiting beliefs and go for all that is possible and these are the affirmations I am focusing on, meditating on and taking in.

Have you or do you Self Sabotage? If yes, how has this shown up in your life?